This has been a really hectic month for me, and the next two months are even crazier. Last night, J and I sat down with my Outlook calendar and planned out every week, every work trip, every weekend plan from now through April. It was necessary, but it freaked me out nonetheless. I love quiet weekends at home, nothing more planned than a trip to the park and reading in our pajamas, and those will be few and far between.
I’ve been struggling with being the person in the marriage who is gone so often. I know women whose husbands travel frequently, but it feels different when it’s the wife. Maybe because even though we split household duties equally, I’ve always felt like there are “mom responsibilities” that I should be home to provide. And when I am home, I’m often so busy and exhausted, I’m not giving J the attention and love I really need to give him. For whatever reason, I am doing a much better job focusing my limited time on the kids than on him.
One thing that is helping me deal with this stress is a new part of my daily routine. I’m not a morning person, so instead I’ve been taking a little break late morning to make a healthy smoothie and to write in my journal. I start each week with the dates of the week, and then as the days progress, I write a few things each day that have made me happy. Some are big, some are little, many are totally silly and ridiculous, but just having them down on paper to refer back to is giving me much-needed big picture perspective. I can see that even though there have been plenty of lows, there are highs that I might have missed or glossed over if I hadn’t stopped to note them. Here are a few from the past week:
1. Norah took great care of me when I was sick, bringing me handmade art and her “sick bear.”
3. The cauliflower and pancetta at 100 Wines!!
4. Girlfriends who want to take our friendships “to the next level” and get emotionally deeper.
5. A friend who volunteered to go with me for my birthday tattoo if Jen can’t make it down for a visit.
6. The gorgeous sunset I saw with the kids Wednesday night.
7. Starting a new, totally engaging book.
8. Making friends with neighbors as a result of my sunny strolls with the dog.
9. The kids wolfing down brussels sprouts at dinner.
10. Three terrific business meetings this week.
Daily smoothies make me happy as well. Here’s the recipe for my go-to this week. If you grew up drinking Orange Julius at the mall food court, you’ll love it!
Orange Creamsicle Smoothie
2 cups almond milk
1 cup fresh-squeezed orange juice
1 frozen banana
handful of ice cubes
Mix in blender and enjoy!
What’s making you happy this week? I’d love to hear.
*image credit Averie Cooks